terça-feira, 21 de agosto de 2007

"mãe...

...they try and break me.

The window burns to light the way back home. A light that warms no matter where they've gone.
They're off to find the hero of the day but what if they should fall by someone's wicked way?
Still the window burns, time so slowly turns...
Someone there is sighing.
Keepers of the flames do you feel your names?
Do you hear your babies crying?

Still they try and break me...

'Scuse me while I tend to how I feel. These things return to me that still seem real
Now deservingly this easy chair but the rocking stops by wheels of despair.
Don't want your aid but the fist I've made for years won't hold or feel.
No I'm not all me
So please excuse me while I tend to how I fell but now the dreams and waking screams that ever last through the night.

So build the wall behind it crawl and hide until it's light.
Can you hear your babies crying now?
Still the window burns, time so slowly turns and someone there is sighing.
Keepers of the flames, can't you feel your names?
Can't you hear your babies crying?
But now the dreams and waking screams that ever last the night, so build a wall behind it crawl and hide until it's light.
So can't you hear your babies crying now?

Mama they try and break me..."





desculpa o incómodo.
mas todas as noites é o mesmo pesadelo.
aquelas imagens que não me saem da cabeça e que vão viver comigo para sempre.
o dia 28 de janeiro...
depois de baixarem o caixão, dezenas e dezenas de pessoas vieram ter comigo numa imagem que lembra a parte do casamento em que toda a gente vai cumprimentar os noivos.

e eu ali,

em pé a chorar de tal maneira que só me lembro de ver caras que não conhecia ou que já não via à anos...
fdx.
às vezes gostava de acabar com isto tudo de uma vez por todas.
de acabar com a minha inutilidade e sofrimento e fugir para perto dele...
seria mais útil e feliz.
aqui sofro e magoo e morro todos os dias sem conseguir mudar ou evitar.

boa noite e um beijo...



sábado, 18 de agosto de 2007

what if I say I will never surrender



o melhor de tudo é que ninguém percebe nada...




"They need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready


In time or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale

We are not permanent
We're temporary

Same old story


I'm the face that you have to face
Mirroring your stare
I'm what's left
I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that'll take you down
Bring you to your knees

So who are you


I'm not like the others

I'm not just another one in your place

I will never surrender..."